So today I just wanted to get a few last shots of what I look like before I have to get my chest ripped open again and go through another open heart surgery. The pictures taken below were from a canon T2i camera and were not edited at all...not even the slightest bit and what you see is what you get. The pictures are also of me posing "Raw" or "Cold" since I have not been able to lift anything heavier than 20 pounds, and if I do its on a very rare occasional and only for a few seconds at most due to my chest still being a bit tender believe it or not.
I guess since it has only been around 5 months it is to be expected since I am still recovering because I hear it will take at least 6-8 months to fully be recovered from what the Drs. say. However, my mom who also had open heart surgery said it took her a year to feel back to normal and at her usual strength. And another reason I am not lifting light weights or even "pumped up" before this little shoot was because my heart rate is abnormally fast, my resting rate is around 105-116 beats per min and the Drs. don't know why!
But they are also worried since I still have 1% of the residual tumor left in my heart and if a small clot from it breaks off from moving around too much it would lead straight to my brain causing a stroke and possibly being fatal. As a result, I have to take a pretty high dose of a blood thinner called Lovenox once a day which is a shot and stings like a bitch and is the reason for the bruises around my lower stomach. Therefore I may not be as big or defined as I used to especially after a heart surgery and 3 rounds of chemo where I literally did not eat anything for the time I was on it and even after a few days because I felt so sick. Plus I've been laying dormant and haven't been using my muscles at all so there is definitely some muscular atrophy going on. But here are pics of me 35 pounds lighter at around 160-165pds.
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